Hello Allies.

Hurm, since he's deleting me, i was like,wow! fantastic baby :p HAHA :D thanks for the pain, once again.

Im just thinking that:-

firstly,jangan nak keras kepala sgt lah kan Syiwa? okey. Dah tak keras dah.

Secondly, ego? wow! sejak bila aku ego? he was like saying, ego aku tinggi! i was like WHAT?! ego aku tinggi? hmm. Kena fikir 100 kali kut? kalau ego aku tinggi, dah lama dah wei syiwa delete dia from my life, from my fesbuk's acc before dia delete aku.Now, sape yg ego tinggi? sape yg pentingkan diri? if not, takde maknanya syiwa nak mintak maaf kat dia, and i try to make things better la kalau dia cakap ego aku tinggi,pentingkan diri sendiri? hadoish. Life like you and me are ugly la kalau go on mcm ni! Nanges sbb dia? hello, bnyk kali k? you said you cried for me too. kan? ke tipu? sbb kalau tak, you won't kick me out. Siapa yg buat siapa hurt? Who cries the most for you and her? or for me? katanya nanges sbb sayangkan someone? yes. I am crying for someone who hate me now, who simply kicked me out of his life. Senangnya kan? Terima kasih lah. But, for what reason? kukuh tak alasan kau nak tendang aku cam tu je? Aku pernah kata aku nak tendang kau dari hidup aku. Aku ada kata mcm tu.Tapi, aku tahu aku tak boleh buat mcm tu. Hati aku tak kuat lah! Im not strong enough to help this feeling. Aku bukan jenis yg sng nanges sbb someone. But lately, i am crying because of you. Pernah tak kau fikir? or, kau nak puaskan hati kau je dengan delete aku? I know your anger.

Third, ckp fhm perasaan? oh. Kalau faham perasaan, kenapa nak marah-marah segala? kata understanding. ops, lupa! i won't listen eh? tanak dengar? brape kali dah dengar en? deny. deny. Woi, setiap malam en, muhasabah lah diri aku, menangis lah gak en sbb kekurangan diri ni. mengadu lah gak kat Tuhan. Lagi better. Now, i realize, Allah ni nak tunjukkan aku jalan yg terbaik kut? setiap benda ada hikmah en?

Next, sorry to say. Bukan nak ckp ada org rmpas my superhero. WHAT?! sejahat-jahat mulut aku pun en, takdenye lah aku nak ckp kau perampas.maybe ayat aku yg buatkan dia terasa dia perampas, maybe? okay. mintak maaf. Tapi, bukan nak ckp aku ni baik ke apa, setiap kali kawan aku kata kau perampas, i would shut them up. Sebab aku tahu, setiap org ada fans masing-masing, rite? so, tak salah kut kalau kau minat dia en? he's yours rite? Go on with him. i wont say you perampas.

hey hero, you said you care for me? oh. Thanks alot. Tu dulu kan? Dulu pun, hurm. 50% je kut you care for me. Time exam, siapa yg bagi semangat? siapa yg cakap 'goodluck'.? Ada kau cakap kat aku? i'm waiting tapi sampai habes exam pun takde! Sedih sangat time tu. entah-entah semua benda yg aku bg kau campak dalam tong sampah. Even secebis kertas, tisu yg kau kasi tu, aku still simpan. Kalau kau simpan, thanks. Hate me? silakan. But think, for what reason? 

Jangan ikut perasaan sendiri? I am not! Siapa yg ikut perasaan sendiri? Kau kan? Kalau tak, dah lama aku tak reply text kau. Even aku off phone. Tahu tak, sakit sgt aku rasa bila kau senang je buat mcm ni kat aku. You know what boy, you are my first man that knock my heart, that makes my heart beats faster than usual. Before this, aku pandang lelaki sebelah mata je lah. Tak sangka lelaki yg aku expected baik, pemaaf, jadi so  aggresive. Ikut perasaan dia sendiri. Alhamdulillah. Syukur la wei aku takkan pernah lupa kau sampai bila bila pun. I am for who i am. Aku takkan blame kau. Sebab aku pun sedar yg aku salah.

I REALLY MISS HOW CLOSE WE WERE BEFORE :(

Lastly, you're the first one in my heart. Puas tak delete Syahirah Sulieman? puas kan? Thanks for the past time. Sweet sgt time tu. Gembira. Teruja. Hope that, our friendship never die. Hope that God will open your heart to take me back as the part of your life. Pernah sekali tu dia cakap yg we will be friend forever kan? Tak ingat? It's okay. YOU ARE THE FIRST ONE THAT UNLOCK MY HEART. First love, maybe? ahah :') thanks, you give me pain and force me to cry. Never want this things happened to me :( NEVER. but it's Allah's fate. Syiwa mintak maaf for everything but at least, i won't kick you from my life. I had forgave you long time ago even you're not asking for it. i really miss you. like seriously :(

To his' girl:
 Sorry for everything. For my harsh words, for my damn works. You're not a prowler. He's yours.